i wanna come home

i wanna come home

 

i wanna come home……  i wanna come home……

i wanna forget how cold it's been all these days without you

and find arms more familiar than my own

 

i wanna create more reasons to not pretend anymore

and contend i don't actually need you

cause everything inside says

i've more recipes to feed you

more

stories to speak true

and i can't help but bleed through

this heart that beats new

when i'm comin' home

to you

 

i wanna come home

 

i wanna tell you too many times

ain't nothin more beautiful

in life

than to know & view the strength of your kindness

to witness forgiveness more apparent than litmus

the ITness

of you

never surrendering

to being anything

but you

 

that i put such faith in two/people loving graciously

voraciously and audaciously

before i ever

precociously, as a child

set out

in search of you

 

and the weaker heart has always been my own!

 

failing more often in the face of opposition

& distracting attraction

the contraction of conviction

that has too long played my best friend

providing less answers to my

question

of "Top Ten

Reasons Why I'm Not With You Now?"

 

and i realize

continental drift can't be my scapegoat anymore

 

and what separates us

has little

or nothing to do with proximity

as it has to do

with the constant shifting of perspectives

the directives i receive

from fear

 

and it corrupts me

absolutely

 

and the time it takes for your words to travel

and heal me

leaves me too wounded and weak to feel free

in a country

who boasts we should be

yet only slightly

loosens the noose on oak trees

when our pockets are filled with rocks

 

when we spend more time

downloading images

of pussies & cocks

 

cause i swear

we punch in

and punch out

like slaves to clocks

and all i wanna do is come home

 

and apologize for not being there sooner

 

cause the only freedom i want to fight for

is for the right to say

"i love you"

for the rest of my life

 

and if the presence of your hand

is contingent upon a plane ticket

and a willingness to believe

then i guess i know now

what i have to do